~Hurt~


I have never been afraid of anybody in my life, I was very open to people but now I am not. This presten day I am very depressed cause everybody makes fun of me and I keep ignoring the name calling but its just cluttering inside and some nights I cry myself to sleep. But it never gets better and every one says " Jeffrey pray to gad he will help." I have every night but every day it gets worse. I still believe in god I really do, but I can't take it any more i have thought things that I would just to stop, like end me life but I know thats the wrong thing to do. And I will be standing in front of God and how he will be very disapointed in me. And how I ended my life so early when I could experienced life, like experience Love, children, grandchildren. So that will never be an opption, I am Hurt inside and somedays I hope it will get better.It is so bad no girl wants to go out with me, if she does then she gets mad fun of and thats why one of my girl friends broke up with me. Most people are lucky in life, like my sisters, they are beautiful in every way. But all I am is an ugly duckling, I hope that I will be beautiful and every body in my family says " Jeffrey You are so beautiful." But everybody says that they are saying that cause they are my family. I try impress every one to much they think I am annoying, I don't mean to be that but I am trying to be funny and if you are reading this then you know why I act so weird I am really trying to impress you. Thats mostly why know one will invite me to there parties cause I am an embaressment for that I am sorry. Just writing this is making me almost cry but this is all the truth, I am ugly and annoying. I totally understand if you think this is true, I agree. But I am still Hurting inside. It got so bad my father yelled at me saying that I should fight someone if they call me something but that doesn't solve annything. But can you beleieve that a father would yell at his own child cause he was getting made fun of? See the bullies always win. But what will happen to me? I am afraid that no one will marry me for that reason. I will always Hurt inside.

~Hurt~